The ACL

I never knew I had it. Now I know way too much about it. And what it means to "fix" it, if you can call it that. I have to admit that I am fearful. I rarely admit that I am fearful. but today, I am honestly fearful. I have been taking myself out every day on mini adventures for 2 years. Just recently I got into actually doing exercise without the adventure component. Now I am faced with a surgery that does not seem to give the kind of results I want to hear about. Other people in the world are suffering worse. But I have never liked relativism. I am very afraid of this surgery. I am afraid of having screws in my leg, and getting "weather pains" from rain. I like the rain. I want to go out in the rain. I want to have a normal body again. But once its broken, you can't have it back. So sad. I have ignored my fear, until now. My lifestyle, and the lifestyle I was trying to cultivate, is in jeopardy.